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It is hard to understand how a person who has been ditched feels. Because as a third party, you cannot feel how it is like to go through a failed relationship. For some ppl, they have had several boyfriends/girlfriends before, and they managed to move on after some time. There are some ppl who hold on to the failed relationship too much, blame too many things for the failed relationship, and cannot let go. I don't know if it is fair to say that only ppl who put in their hearts and souls into a rs will feel this way, cos some ppl are jus very 潇洒 in their own ways. 拿得起就得放得下.
But there's one thing that i believe: As you grow older, it gets harder and harder to let go of rs, for plenty of reasons, like afraid tt old alr cannot find someone better.. too used to a person alr.. too comfortable in a rs to find someonelse better.. or simply jus not used to being single. Hey, silly it may sound, but ask ard and you'll know how true this is.
I have been through a failed relationship, and kinda lead an "un-yingying" life for abt.. 1/2 a yr? I know tt I am a person who views love very seriously. To the extent that if I know that this guy isn't suitable for me, I will never go out with him even if I feel i like him and I know he likes me! That's how difficult I am. And which is the reason why in my entire life, I have only gone on solo dates with 2 guys only. Hahah I even find eating lunch with eric in school weird if rs weren't ard!
Sorry i digressed. Yes a failed rs.. It is really not easy to handle, and during the few months following a break-up, I couldn't stop asking myself what was it that I did wrong, and why did i deserve to go thru all these even tho i was a good gf, and why didnt the other party has to go through the agony i went through. As you read this, you probably won't understand. Well, like wad I've said earlier, you've gotta experience it first. Ok continue. All sorts of thoughts went through my mind.. incoherent ones like suicide? and even revenge, although i didnt know how i was gg to do tt and I knew i didnt wan to die. But all these thoughts jus flashed across my mind. I couldnt bear to leave my house, for every corner holds memories. I couldnt even listen to ballads or watch tv! The world was jus a sad place.
At the same time, I brought a lot of pain and saddness to the ppl around me.. my friends.. my family, esp my mom. But they were all supportive.. and tried to lead me out of the darkness. Initially, it helped. I felt happy when i busy with them. but when i enter the solitude of my room, all the saddness and cruelty jus came crashing down on me again. It's like drowning. One moment u managed to raise above the water surface to gasp for air, but the next moment, you get pulled down again. Someone tries to pull u up.. but u sick in again cos your hands are too slippery. The cylce repeats.. until one fine day, you are determined to thread water even if it costs your life. And it is that day, you start life afresh.
I never managed to thread water long enough. Everytime i managed to do so for some time, a jellyfish comes by and sting my legs. The last time I tried, someone pulled me out of the water - I didn't do it on my own.
Recently, my friend broke up with her bf. Like me, she couldnt get over it. She continued to keep in touch with her bf, altho as friends. One day, she did sth terrible and her ex jus decided that he doesn not wan to talk to her anymore. She was v devastated. She called, msned, smsed, but no replies at all. How terrible is it to be ignored? She was at it for 3 months.. At one point, I even advised her to see a counseller to seek help.
One morning, she woke up and jus snapped out of it. She jus suddenly realised tt her bf was gone, and nothing will brg him back, and she finally came to terms with tt fact. It was jus like waking up from a nightmare - all that she felt was relief. She threw away all the flowers, and kept away all the gifts and photos. She changed her financial adviser (who was her bf) and ended all relationships she had with him: love, friend, business. And she jus deleted him from her msn list. And now, she is leading a carefree life, a life that she deserves. I really salut her. If ever one day i get ditched again, I swear i wan to be like her.
Ok end of story.
But there's one thing that i believe: As you grow older, it gets harder and harder to let go of rs, for plenty of reasons, like afraid tt old alr cannot find someone better.. too used to a person alr.. too comfortable in a rs to find someonelse better.. or simply jus not used to being single. Hey, silly it may sound, but ask ard and you'll know how true this is.
I have been through a failed relationship, and kinda lead an "un-yingying" life for abt.. 1/2 a yr? I know tt I am a person who views love very seriously. To the extent that if I know that this guy isn't suitable for me, I will never go out with him even if I feel i like him and I know he likes me! That's how difficult I am. And which is the reason why in my entire life, I have only gone on solo dates with 2 guys only. Hahah I even find eating lunch with eric in school weird if rs weren't ard!
Sorry i digressed. Yes a failed rs.. It is really not easy to handle, and during the few months following a break-up, I couldn't stop asking myself what was it that I did wrong, and why did i deserve to go thru all these even tho i was a good gf, and why didnt the other party has to go through the agony i went through. As you read this, you probably won't understand. Well, like wad I've said earlier, you've gotta experience it first. Ok continue. All sorts of thoughts went through my mind.. incoherent ones like suicide? and even revenge, although i didnt know how i was gg to do tt and I knew i didnt wan to die. But all these thoughts jus flashed across my mind. I couldnt bear to leave my house, for every corner holds memories. I couldnt even listen to ballads or watch tv! The world was jus a sad place.
At the same time, I brought a lot of pain and saddness to the ppl around me.. my friends.. my family, esp my mom. But they were all supportive.. and tried to lead me out of the darkness. Initially, it helped. I felt happy when i busy with them. but when i enter the solitude of my room, all the saddness and cruelty jus came crashing down on me again. It's like drowning. One moment u managed to raise above the water surface to gasp for air, but the next moment, you get pulled down again. Someone tries to pull u up.. but u sick in again cos your hands are too slippery. The cylce repeats.. until one fine day, you are determined to thread water even if it costs your life. And it is that day, you start life afresh.
I never managed to thread water long enough. Everytime i managed to do so for some time, a jellyfish comes by and sting my legs. The last time I tried, someone pulled me out of the water - I didn't do it on my own.
Recently, my friend broke up with her bf. Like me, she couldnt get over it. She continued to keep in touch with her bf, altho as friends. One day, she did sth terrible and her ex jus decided that he doesn not wan to talk to her anymore. She was v devastated. She called, msned, smsed, but no replies at all. How terrible is it to be ignored? She was at it for 3 months.. At one point, I even advised her to see a counseller to seek help.
One morning, she woke up and jus snapped out of it. She jus suddenly realised tt her bf was gone, and nothing will brg him back, and she finally came to terms with tt fact. It was jus like waking up from a nightmare - all that she felt was relief. She threw away all the flowers, and kept away all the gifts and photos. She changed her financial adviser (who was her bf) and ended all relationships she had with him: love, friend, business. And she jus deleted him from her msn list. And now, she is leading a carefree life, a life that she deserves. I really salut her. If ever one day i get ditched again, I swear i wan to be like her.
Ok end of story.
posted by Tweety Bird at 12:22 AM
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