A trip to the dentist and many other short stories

Finally! I get to blog again! been so busy since school reopened.

I went to the dentist yesterday.

To many of you, it's no big deal. See dentist only wad, it;s like seeing doctor ma. wads so special?? Read on...

The day before seeing the dentist, i was already getting real nervous.

Why? you may ask.

Because i have not been to the dentist for almost a decade and Mabel's frightening encounters with the dentists totally freaked me out. She wanted to book an appt to see the dentist the day before and i went with her. As i approached the dental centre, i could hear the dentistry equipment. I'm sure you can imagine the sound. I so totally freaked out again.

On the same day, i was talking to Mr. Ying Wai online. I asked him if i will have to fill my teeth. He told me that chances tt i still hav perfect teeth is zilch. Sigh. He's a nice friend, but if he could still tell me tt despite knowing tt i was already totally freaked out tells me tt chances of decayed teeth is darn high.

The next day, i reached the place at 11am. Got a stomachache somemore. shows how scared i was. Now i dun even get stomachache when i hav exams lor. nor when i get my results lor.

Finally, my turn to sit on THE chair. The min i laid down n opened my mouth the dentist said "Hmm, some hardened deposits, definitely have to clean... hmm.. and mayb some decay gg on"

My heart sank immediately. Sian half liao. Gotta prepare for the worst.

Then he took out this laser equipment tt detects decaying teeth. If teeth is decayed, the equipment will sound. The equipment sounded! like it never sounded before! apparently one of my teeth was like really decayed? I couldnt believe tt was happening to me. How can i have decayed teeth? It's sooo .... UNFAIR! (ok i know i deserve it for not faithfully visiting the dentist.. but i brush my teeth everyday!!)

I couldnt help but tear.. i will explain y later on. The dentist was shocked like anything man. He kept saying "dun worry dun worry.. ur not gg to lose ur teeth.. it's not a painful process at all" of cos i know i wont lose my teeth nor will there be pain.. but.. i jus DONT want my teeth filled!

Throughout the whole trial, i was so tensed up tt the dentist had to stop halfway and pat my hand and say "dont be so worried.. " he even used his fingers to wipe away my tears. I felt like a huge baby.

Well, i have one teeth filled. And i booked another appt on feb 14 to fill more teeth. Sigh.

Ok, many of us have certain beliefs, or rather wants, tt we hold on to for the rest of our life. For some, they want long hair for their whole life. If their hair becomes damaged and they have no choice but to cut, they will be sooo upset.

For me, i believe in having a perfect set of teeth. Meaning, no fillings no extractions no fake teeth. I started having this belief since pri 1, cos of health education lessons. I remember seeing this cartooon pic of an old lady who still has a perfect set of pearlies and was showing it off to her grandson.

I vowed then to be like her. I wanted to show my grandson tt i'm one of those rare people who dont need to fill teeth.

I always feel tt ppl who hav fillings are dirty ppl.. ppl who dont brush their teeth. (no offence, filled teeth ppl) And i somehow feel tt they deserve having filled teeth. "Serve them right for chewing sweets and not brushing teeth." but now i am one of those 'dirty' ppl. Do you know how it feels to belong to a group tt you once despise?? but now.. i know.. not all ppl who have filled teeth are dirty.. i diligently brush my teeth for more than 3 min each time.. i seldom eat sweets.. but still?!? i have to hav decayed teeth.

Sigh. I wonder how many of u understand how i feel. I saw Mr Ying Wai after seeing the dentist and couldnt help but start crying in front of him again. Just couldnt help it cos i was soo devastated. Oh well, you prob dont understand.

If God cant give me a perfect set of teeth, then i wish he will make all my friends have filled teeth. Ha Ha Ha. Oh dear, I'm so upset.

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I got sunburnt today! And you know wad?! My skin started itching and then viola!!
Rashes POPPED out! My backed itched like mad until i have to clency my teeth to stop myself from scratching. I made a special trip down to guardian pharmacy to buy aloe vera gel. By then, the rashes subsided. -_-||| wasted my money.. aiya but gd investment lar. i forsee more tanning sessions.. right, evon? =p

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Shall mention my younger sister here. She knew i had a bad case of rashes today and she rushed down to the conveniece stall about 400 m away from my house to buy powder for me! And she ran! Though she spent 50 cents of my money on potato chips, well, she's forgiven for running there for me!

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My posters are all over NTU! ha ha ha. keep a lookout for me!

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My thoughts on hatred:

Wat exactly is hatred? Is disliking someone to the core considered hatred? Prob you hate the person who cheated on you before. For me, I hated(note the past tense. I am a magnanimous person who forgets hatred) the friend who refused to lend me her eraser (she had 2) during my sec 2 final year art exam.

I pondered over this question.. and i realised hatred isnt tt easily simplified.

Ok, let's say your friend got bullied by another friend, call him X. And i mean, really bullied X is your friend too, but u are closer to your friend lar. Will you hate X on your friend's behalf? Probably not.

My definition of hatred. Hating someone on behalf of your loved one. For life. No matter how the person atones for his/her mistakes. tt's the hard core hatred.

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