Helpless
No one, abosolutely no one, can imagine the frustration I am gg thru.
It just had to happened to me on such an impt day.
Today is AA102 exam. SRC Hall F, seat no. 839. forever etched in my mind.
There were 3 questions, 1st one on OA, 2nd on ABC and 3rd on Variances.
Frankly speaking, the paper was do-able. I studied more than enough, read thru ABC 3or4 times. Read through OA and made notes. And the last thing i studied for was Variances.
Spotted all the questions correctly.
I know, i know tt i could have done well for the paper. Because I was very well prepared.
But today, I learnt that being well prepared isn't everything.
While standing outside Hall F waiting to enter, I felt very nervous, more nervous than usual. Perhaps because of the high expectations that i have of myself, and I know I will do well if i put in effort. But there was this weird feeling, tt kept bugging me. That sorta told me tt it ain't gonna be easy. But i jus kept telling myself I'll be fine.
(Outside hall F)
Eric: Dunno why today my stomach so painful.
Me: Haha, you must be too stressed. Later go inside dun think abt ur stomach ah. Den the pain will go away. If really needa go toilet, you think of a strategy now. How you are gg to walk out and run to the toilet (cos it's v far)
Eric, me, rs: [laughs]
Den we entered the hall.. bleahz, freezing cold.. I sat down at my seat, feeling sorta queasy. 2 more minutes.. argh so nervous. "Pls do not turn over the paper.. do not write anything.. open the cover of ur calculator.." Argh so nervous. "Stop being nervous lar, everything will be fine.. it always turns out fine." So nervous..
"You may begin now."
Frantically flipped over the paper. Read read read, read and digest quickly and get the pen moving! Read!! Hey read, not look at the words!
"Dear good students.. there are 3 qns and 4 pages.. look at qn one and read the NOTE.."
Shut up shut up, I'm trying to read.
Oh no.. so difficult to understand.. Just read jus read.. I will under stand soon..
So cold. My toes are so cold. Whats tt weird feeling in my stomach? Jus read jus read... ok now write down the points.. dun panic lar, very easy ma.
Argh, how come the weird feeling is more intense? how come it's so cold? Oh no why is my bladder so full? Aiya, finish the paper den say lar.. jus write jus write..
Argh fuck it lar, go toilet, den can do the paper in peace. Mayb shit if got time.
(Back in hall)
What the hell. wat patient days?? how to calculate cost for hospital?? TMD. Why is tt funny feeling back? AIYA JUS CONCENTRATE ON THE PAPER LAR! STOP THINKING ABOUT YOUR PATHETIC TUMMY! AND STOP FEELING COLD!
Oh no.. how to calculate variance? Ok relax.. I remember the formula.. Huh? WIP?? Finished goods? Why variances got process costing?? Shit.. THINK ABT VARIANCE LAR, STOP THINKING ABOUT TT PAIN IN UR TUMMY!
"Please stop writing.."
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I am angry, i dunno wad to do. Why is it tt a simple paper i also cant do? why?? i studied wad! No, I studied HARD!
Because, I had a stomachache.
I came out of the exam hall, with a sinking feeling. I know, I did badly for it.
I am not those kinda fake ppl who come out of the exam pretending to look sian cos the paper was difficult, just so to be like the majority who found the paper diff, and den complain abt how difficult it is, when deep down i know i will do well. Don't leave comments saying tt 'aiya u so smart scared for wad. no matter wad also will get good grades lar. u think too much lar.' If you dare say tt, den u fuck the wall.
No one, abosolutely no one, can imagine the frustration I am gg thru.
It just had to happened to me on such an impt day.
Today is AA102 exam. SRC Hall F, seat no. 839. forever etched in my mind.
There were 3 questions, 1st one on OA, 2nd on ABC and 3rd on Variances.
Frankly speaking, the paper was do-able. I studied more than enough, read thru ABC 3or4 times. Read through OA and made notes. And the last thing i studied for was Variances.
Spotted all the questions correctly.
I know, i know tt i could have done well for the paper. Because I was very well prepared.
But today, I learnt that being well prepared isn't everything.
While standing outside Hall F waiting to enter, I felt very nervous, more nervous than usual. Perhaps because of the high expectations that i have of myself, and I know I will do well if i put in effort. But there was this weird feeling, tt kept bugging me. That sorta told me tt it ain't gonna be easy. But i jus kept telling myself I'll be fine.
(Outside hall F)
Eric: Dunno why today my stomach so painful.
Me: Haha, you must be too stressed. Later go inside dun think abt ur stomach ah. Den the pain will go away. If really needa go toilet, you think of a strategy now. How you are gg to walk out and run to the toilet (cos it's v far)
Eric, me, rs: [laughs]
Den we entered the hall.. bleahz, freezing cold.. I sat down at my seat, feeling sorta queasy. 2 more minutes.. argh so nervous. "Pls do not turn over the paper.. do not write anything.. open the cover of ur calculator.." Argh so nervous. "Stop being nervous lar, everything will be fine.. it always turns out fine." So nervous..
"You may begin now."
Frantically flipped over the paper. Read read read, read and digest quickly and get the pen moving! Read!! Hey read, not look at the words!
"Dear good students.. there are 3 qns and 4 pages.. look at qn one and read the NOTE.."
Shut up shut up, I'm trying to read.
Oh no.. so difficult to understand.. Just read jus read.. I will under stand soon..
So cold. My toes are so cold. Whats tt weird feeling in my stomach? Jus read jus read... ok now write down the points.. dun panic lar, very easy ma.
Argh, how come the weird feeling is more intense? how come it's so cold? Oh no why is my bladder so full? Aiya, finish the paper den say lar.. jus write jus write..
Argh fuck it lar, go toilet, den can do the paper in peace. Mayb shit if got time.
(Back in hall)
What the hell. wat patient days?? how to calculate cost for hospital?? TMD. Why is tt funny feeling back? AIYA JUS CONCENTRATE ON THE PAPER LAR! STOP THINKING ABOUT YOUR PATHETIC TUMMY! AND STOP FEELING COLD!
Oh no.. how to calculate variance? Ok relax.. I remember the formula.. Huh? WIP?? Finished goods? Why variances got process costing?? Shit.. THINK ABT VARIANCE LAR, STOP THINKING ABOUT TT PAIN IN UR TUMMY!
"Please stop writing.."
==========
I am angry, i dunno wad to do. Why is it tt a simple paper i also cant do? why?? i studied wad! No, I studied HARD!
Because, I had a stomachache.
I came out of the exam hall, with a sinking feeling. I know, I did badly for it.
I am not those kinda fake ppl who come out of the exam pretending to look sian cos the paper was difficult, just so to be like the majority who found the paper diff, and den complain abt how difficult it is, when deep down i know i will do well. Don't leave comments saying tt 'aiya u so smart scared for wad. no matter wad also will get good grades lar. u think too much lar.' If you dare say tt, den u fuck the wall.
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