Birthdays birthdays and more birthdays...

The months of September and October are the worst months for me. Beacause everyone just seems to be born around this time, and I get totally broke jus giving presents. bleah.

Lemme see...
My godmother's birthday was last week...
Claire's bday also jus passed..
Yaowen's birthday was last Sat..
Cheryl's birthday was on Monday... (if u r reading, happy belated bday!)
Hanping is this coming sat...
Jasmine's bday is coming..
So is Randy's..
So is my godfather..
Oh.. and eric....

Tell me how broke can i get.. And most of them are celebrating their 21st birthdays... Attending all these birthday parties made me remember about my own birthday celebration. My greatest worry then was that no one will turn up for my birthday. Afterall, I am not a very sociable person.. I chose to only invite friends whom I treasure, and whom I think really made a difference in my life. I didnt invite people because they are my good friend's fren, I didn't care if it was politically wrong or wad. I just thought birthday celebrations, well maybe only for 21st birthdays, should be spent with loved ones. Wouldn't it be terrible if I have to go round entertaining acquaintances and neglect my close frens? I'm not saying those who invite all their frens are hypocritical or that they don't care about their close frens. Some people are social people, they like have many frens to share their joy with (or to get more presents hahahhaha).

It saddened me a lot when some of my close frens didn't turn up. No it wasn't the presents. It was their presence that mattered.(hey it rhymes! I think i am getting more n more poetic hahhahahah. ok i am joking.). If they didnt bother to turn up for my birthday party, it really really says a lot. I mean, if i were to die, i would still go to evon emily mabel rs 31 meryl blah blah's birthday party! No matter how busy I am, I make sure i spend a bit of time at their party! Come on lar, I have been invited to birthday parties, I know how it feels like to not feel like gg for someone's party, esp when we are not even close at all. Some more still must spend money to buy present. And then that person prob wont come for my party. I would rather they tell me way beforehand that they cant come, and not give me some silly excuse on the actual day. HELLO people need to prepare the food can??! You just dont come den my food how how how how??? OK the food is no big deal lar i am jus exaggerating.

Yar lor. I know some of then have valid reasons lar, and I really hope those reasons are true and not some excuse they conjured up. My fren staying in Jurong East even came lor. Sigh. I have since then start to wonder whether these people still treat me as a good fren or not. And i begin to doubt if those happy and crazy school days that I spent with them were jus sth superficial. I had thought they were genuine. Well... at least some of them did send me a birthday message on my actual birth day. So I choose to believe that I still mean something in their hearts.

Ok lar.. people change when they grow up, so the friendship changes too. But it still makes me sad. =( So.. now I go for people's birthday parties when they invite me. And i don't go LATE, unless circumstances dun allow. I won't sit down at home and rot my time away. So disrespectful. humph.

Ok I finished complaining already.

Poetic Me in the Making

I Know I am not Important

I know I am not important
When u go to bed without sending a message
And u fall asleep without thinking of me
Your dreams are made up of fantasies
Of beautiful things
But never me

I know I am not important
For your train rides are spent sleeping
Instead of calling me
The couple in front of you
Looks deeply into each other's eyes
But it was never yours into mine

I know I am not important
When we go on dates
And walk down the street side by side
But miles part
We have already lost the connection
Since the day u let go of my hands

And all these happened
From the day you stopped telling me
How much you love me
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If I never tell you i wrote this poem, you will think it was written by some famous romantic poet right??

Ans: Right!!!!!!!! hahahhahahah

These days I am very inspired to write poems abt random feelings that I feel at any time in the day. As i grow older, it gets harder and harder to express my true feelings. It's so difficult to do so without getting misunderstood. And writing down chucks of text doesnt give me the release of those tensions n feelings. So i started to to think in verses. And write in verses. Yes lar I know my verses sucks lar. No depth no meaning. And my poems dont rhyme also. hahahha. Today I am inspired to write abt this cos sth happened lar (and dun assume it happened to me okayy). Its gg to be a waste of ur time hor, and definitely not value-adding. But i'm posting it for remembrance. =)

Boring Lecture..

Friday lecture is always so boring and ... useless.

We are always bored and not listening. Last fri, for some reason, yuan chang and i had cameras with us. So we decided to have some fun....


Do we look similar? hahhaha

Den mabel n rs also joined in...



They look scary!!!!

Ok lets jus be decent....



THe only decent photo tt we took.. -_-''''

She danced in the rain

She sang with a melodious voice

Time passed.

She forgot how to sing

How to dance.

As she sits on the bus

On her way home

The beautiful scenery whizz past

She stares out of the window

Into the vast empty space.

I climbed the legendary 5 dollars tree!!

You must be thinking wad "5dollars tree" am I talking about...

Recently, I went to the Botanical gardens and hav loads of fun climbing a tree... Evon initially thought it was the tree that was featured in the show "孩子树", but it wasnt lar. It must jus be some normal trees, i reckoned. But I tell you! This tree is more famous than the tree in "孩子树"! Probably only Asians (or more specifically, Singaporeans) have seen "孩子树" before. But PEOPLE FRM ALL OVER THE WORLD has seen the tree that i climbed before!

Let me show you again the tree that i climbed at botanical gardens:

Compare the tree to this tree:

See the resemblance?

I ACTUALLY CLIMBED THE TREE ON THE FIVE DOLLARS SINGAPORE NOTE! WOW WAD A FEAT!

ok, big deal.

Superstar - A fairy tale ending

Firstly, I wish to proclaim to the world that i went to watch Project Superstar Live at the indoor stadium!!!! It is really different to watch it live, all the singers even sound different.

Me, Mabel, Ruishan, Shanyi, Lifang, Mengsoon, Th and Jiahong went together.. It was fun gg out with them. We had dinner there, at guess where? NO SIGNBOARD RESTAURANT! Our intention was to go and listen to the contestants sing, not spend money on seafood.. but we didnt have a choice, there werent any other places to eat. So we went in, deciding to jus order fried rice or hor fun n share.

Me: "Eh, dun use the wet tissues! They charge money one! Return to them and say we dun need!"

(A few minutes later, the waitress came to put chilli sauce on the table, tog w 2 plates of peanuts.)

Me: "Eh, DONT EAT THE PEANUTS!! Very Ex one!!"

Ruishan: "I think even if we dun eat or use the wet tissue, they will still charge us."

IMMEDIATELY, Mabel took the plate of peanuts and started act like she was gg to gobble down the peanuts.

It was a funny sight lar.

Anw, back to Superstar. Initially, I went there to support Kelly, and I thought she would be a deserving winner too. But then, if she didnt win, i'll be okay with it too..

Then I sawWeillian on the stage, everywhere he went, he needed someone to guide him. And suddenly, my heart went out to him. I felt like I were him. I could feel that it wasnt easy for him at all. He needs to know where to look, how to smile (when he doesnt know what kind of smile will make him look good), and act like he can see and is comfortable on stage. who would like to go thru these every week for 3 months?

I saw his fans, waving boards, wearing blue, screaming n cheering for him. But all these, he couldnt see, he could only hear, and imagine how it looked like. I think its very painful for him, to not know what is gg on, and yet know that he has so many ppl supporting him.

Today, I watched this documentary on TV abt Weilian. It featured his daily life, his home, his family. And for one scene, he was eating a packet of fried bee hoon. And I suddenly felt there's a part of me in him. He's jus like any normal person, who eats what we eat. Yet, his world is totally different from ours.

I think he really deserved to win the Superstar title. And i dun think ppl voted for him out of sympathy, but rather, they, like me, thinks that he has worked hard. I'm glad I've never said any nasty things abt him, if not i am not gg to forgive myself for tt.