The end of my university life

Yes, but it opens a new chapter in my life. And although I very much hoped that I wont have to move on, life doesnt stop. So I hav no choice but to move on.

My last day in hall has passed. My last sleep there, my last shower.. my last laundry.. my last day of an independent life. It was very hard for me as I was packing my room. Like what rs said, it was tough taking those decorations down.. esp my lbxx filmstrips, I nearly wanted to cry as I took those down. Cos once I remove them, they will only remain as memories.. I will never see them again.

I guess it wouldn't have been so difficult for me if my bf werent staying in hall too. A part of me knows that his life will continue in this hall, while I start my life afresh at home. I'm not saying I hate starting afresh at home, but rather, I hate to miss those good times we spent together. He kept telling me that I can always go back and visit him when the new semester starts, but I know its going to be different, cos by then, I wont be a part of Hall 14 anymore.

Jus the other day Mabel came back to hall to stay in my room. And those few days I was really quite happy. As usual, Mabel, being her talkative and cheerful self, kept me and rs v cheerful for those few days. And I realised how much things have changed after Mabel moved away. But me n rs have gotten used to it w/o realising. I hope I will also get used to staying at home without realising too.

On friday, before I closed my room door, I took a good long look at my room for the last time. And then I whispered goodbye to those good old days..

Some random pictures

Well... I was looking through the photos in my comp when i came across these few pictures... they were drawn when I wasn't around. Take a look at the first two photos. These 2 photos were drawn by miss mabel and ruishan (rs u dun hav a "miss" cos I PURPOSELY dun wan to address u as a "miss" muahahhaha. poor rs keeps getting bullied by me these days) I dunno why i wasn't in my room and why I allowed the 2 of them to come into my rm... being the boliao them, they started drawing what they think of me..



This is by beloved mabel. brown hair somemore. and wad are those red dots doing on my hair?!


Ruishan is more kindly... at least I am smiling... eh but why my eyes one big one small?! and I hav bigger hands than legs some more. -_-'''
Den I saw this pic... my younger sister drew it 2 yrs ago. I didnt knew she drew sth my saved it in my comp, so imagine how shocked I was when I saw the picture.. but I burst out laughing. Lemme give u a lil backgrd abt my family. I have 2 sisters, one younger one older, which means i'm the middle child. This pic is drawn by my youngest sis..
Check this out man. She even has a lil ribbon on her hair?!

French marks the end of my undergrad life

8.30 am
Oh mann my neighbour is slamming her door again. Totally dun understand why she needs to slam it everytime she walks in and out. So inconsiderate I want to slp one okay... GRRRRRR

10.15 am
*rubs eyes and squint at the wall clock* Oh man wad time is it.... Arghh I better wake up.. needa meet Eunyce at Can A to do some last min revision for the French exam later.. okok 15 more min..

10.20am
*Beep beep* *Beep beep* Aiyo who msg me?!


This is my retribution for always waking her up from her afternoon nap...

10.30am
Finally, time to wake up. No point forcing myself to sleep when i am already awake.. might as well go Can A and find Eunyce...

1.25pm
Eunyce: Eh! I think we need to know the festivals for the whole year you know! fête du travail (Labour Day) is on 1st May... Noël is Christmas Day.. Été begins on .... *yawn*

1.30 pm
Arghh can't wait to get this over and done with. French is half killing me. I better dont do too badly for the exam... and make sure I finish before 4 pm!*prays hard*

1.45pm
Yay festivals actually came out!!! Tell me how lucky I am... thank god Eunyce mentioned it jus before the exams... Wahahhah 1 mai (1st May) est (is) fête du travail!!! I know!!!

2.30pm
Oh no what is a "bird" in french called?? Oh man is <> a french movie?? When did Napoleon die?? Is "horse" called "cheval"?? Kill me...........

3.20pm
Aiya ok lar dunno means dunno.. a few marks only never mind lar... hahhaha.. Ok I shall leave... NOW!

3.22pm
Hmmm should I wait for Eunyce to come out also? But dunno how long she will take leh... wanna discuss with her.. aiya nevermind will see her in sch again. *pause* No I won't be in school anymore... And I'm not going to see my french class friends again... well at least not in school.
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I walked out of the exam hall.. feeling weird.. It really feel like the end of a show, like 剧终.. It is like the end of a performance... all the actors n actresses go on to lead their own lives.. my friends go on to worry abt their remaining papers.. while I go on to worry abt getting a job.. I met Kiran, another french classmate outside the exam hall. As i bade goodbye to him, he said "Bye, see you in sch.. opps I guess not." Then he drove off. At the moment, I felt like there was a huge barrier between us, separting him, as a student, and me, as a jobless grad. Now, I no longer feel like a student anymore, NTU is no longer the place I should be at and Hall 14 is no longer my home.

安娜玛德莲娜

Ｉ　jus watched this show starring Takeshi Kaneshiro. It's a typical chines love story, but this particular line in the movie caught my attention

金城武：为什么要发明“我爱你”这三个字？
陈慧琳：因为是发明给你们男人的啊。
金城武：那你们女人说什么？
陈慧琳：我们等啊！
金城武：？？
陈慧琳：我们女人等你们对我们说“我爱你”，然后我们我们就说“mmm.. 我也是。”

To cut or not to cut

Oh no i'm at a dilemma... My hair is very long now, in fact too long. On top of that, i've got lotsa hair, so its long AND thick. You think... wads wrong with thick and long hair right? Afterall, its femine and I can style lotsa styles..
I dunno if u can see that it looks very heavy.. but when i saw this picture, this first thought that came to my mind is that my scalp is suffering from all the weight.

Well I'm jus trying to show that its really long lar. I had thought that I wanted to cut... but jus yesterday I realised that I cant bear to.. =( I've never had such long hair before! On the other hand.. I'm wasting a lot of shampoo and conditioner. -_- oh mannnn should i cuttttttt.... =((((((

For my dearest friend

I am like so tired now but i decided to jus endure my sleepiness for a few minutes and write this specially for my friend. You know who you are.

I am sure making that decision wasn't easy for you at all.. Afterall I know you so well. But then again, you're a very courageous person and I really believe that you will get through this eventually. Life's not exactly gg to be easy, but hey, who knows? You might jus find a drop dead gorgeous guy one of these days at one of the clubs! (haha but i doubt u will b interested)

Anyway.. always know that we're a phone call away.. an msn away.. a msg away.. a town away... hahahha. I heard retail therapy works, lets try it soon!

Take care my dear friend... =)

Exams over but aiyo, no plans.

Yes yes my exams are finally over.. hmmm i must be mad tho, cos I am actually feeling kinda sad that I wont be studying till late nights or worrying abt getting good grades. But its more terrible to worry about getting a job. How I wish a job will fall down from the sky now. Haha as I am typing this I am imagining a job dropping from the sky. A desk, computer and a comfortable armchair in midair, how funny is that?

I am becoming an adult. A fully independent adult. That's if I find a job. sigh. Why didnt I study accountancy man... okok no more complains I should learn to cherish wad I have. -_-'''

Basically this is jus a loserish post. I'm back to my cow's life, though I must say I am more 'happening' now. Cos I jus came back from ESKIBAR~

Any idea wad is eskibar? Dunno? wahhahahhah you loser pls go get a life and stop studying like a nerd for exams. Basically eskibar is like a pub, but its difference is that it is way too cold for girls who wanna hook some guys home. Cos it's so cold (7 degrees at its hottest, and 0 degress at its coldest?!) that your terrific sexy figure will be hidden under this thick jacket you have to wear (its so cold tt your nose can drop off). Lemme show u how eski looks like...


It takes terribly long to upload one picture... I'm so tired its already 3 AM now i jus wnana slp. If I have the mood i will continue blogging again hahaha. Anw I vow to write more intellectual blogs. I am like becoming so bimbo.

Stop telling others to cherish what they have

At 22 years old, I've read tonnes of forwarded emails that talk about how a person only learnt how to cherish his/her loved ones after they have left them. And how we should, you know, jus run up to our loved one and hug him/her and exclaim "I love you!" Loosely translated, you mean "I don't want to wait till you die liao den say that cos by then you probably cant hear me!"

I thought, and still think, it is outrageously ridiculous. I mean, can u imagine ur mom/dad/friends just coming up to you and say that 3 magic words? you probably will think they are mad.

Well, no doubt the intention of those emails are supposed to make u realise that you should learn to cherish what you have. However, I've come to realise that learning to cherish what we have, people seem to only see what others have, and reprimand them for not cherishing what they have!

I've seen so many people, who only knows how to envy what the others have, instead of what they have. Like, I envy how some of my friends are so lovey-dovey with their other half, and how well their bds treat them.. And i start to complain and whine abt how fate is unfair to me for giving me a bf who is not a SNAG.

That was in the past though. I've been in a rs for more than 4 years, and I daresay that this thinking of mine made me feel like i was an unhappy person. Something as simple as my bf falling aslp on the bus and not talking to me or holding my hand makes me upset. I will think "Why he like that one? Why he cares more abt slping than talking to me? Why he never think for me? He doesnt know I will be bored if he falls aslp meh?" Thinking back, I am so so ridiculous.

I was young n naive back then. I expect him to know EXACTLY how i feel and to understand me. Afterall, our hearts need to beat as one before we are really compatible right?! and my greatest wish was to know whatever that he was thinking. Whether he was happy with me.. what he likes abt me.. what goes on in his mind when he is angry with me.. blah blah blah. I even wanted to know whether I am that important to him afterall.

In a nutshell, I just wasn't happy in that relationship. I expected to much from my bf. I felt he doesnt know how to cherish me. Every wrong that he did, I will remember it. But every right that he did, every sweet lil gesture, I jus brush it off.

Of course now I am a changed person. I learnt to cherish what I have, instead of envying what others have.

Now reflect on yourself. And stop envying others. But I doubt u will get it lar.