My friends

Evon

One of my best friends, she's always been there when i was down. And one of the rare people who understands what i am gg thru. We used not to be so close in sec or JC, but now tt we're both in the same school we hav more time tog. I am glad to have a gd friend like her.

Sth gd abt her:
(1) Fantastic listener
(2) a unique and daring dress sense!
(3) Almost always free to go out with me ahahaha..
(4) Takes love seriously.

Sth bad abt her:
Nothing much actually.. but she's like me lar.. sometimes can be quite silly. People says that she's critical and bossy, but i beg to differ lar. Bossy i dunno, but critical.. hmm.. like me lor! ahahah

Emily

We were more close to each other in JC, and were inseperable. If you see her, you see me. Then we went separate ways, she in NUS i'm in NTU. But we still keep in touch, and she remains one of my best friends too.

Sth gd abt her:
(1) Pretty and tall
(2) One of those rare people who appreciates my lame jokes
(3) Can always count on her when I am in need.

Sth bad abt her:
Hahaha, well.. she's a gd friend, but once you dun keep in touch with her, she's gone! Don't call her to chit chat hor, cos she'll b too bochup to chat with you haha. She's also always busy, though i dunno with what. Not like she studies a lot.... =p

Mabel

My hall mate, hall friend, lecture mate, toilet friend, cooking partner etc etc. Also a gd friend of mine.

Sth gd abt her:
(1) A very encouraging friend
(2) there for me when i needed a listening ear.
(3) feeds me quite well sometimes
(4) Very chatty and nice

Sth bad abt her:
Sometimes, she neglects me! =( But tt's cos she has ms mah.. so i also dun blame her.. Next time i got bf i also neglect her back! hehehehe

Ruishan:

Currently, my lecture n tutorial mate. See her in school almost everyday until i think we're sick of each other.

Sth gd abt her:
(1) Willing to help me out
(2) Laughs at my silly jokes too
(3) Lends a gd listening ear also

Sth bad abt her:
Hmm.. can be quite stuborn at times, once she makes up her mind, she refuses to change it. Eh friend, accomdate me sometimes leh.

Ying Wai

Biz law tutorial mate, ex hall mate, currently MSN regular friend. Though we dont take the same course anymore, and seldom see each other, we remained as friends.

Sth gd abt him:
(1) Helpful
(2) Kind hearted
(3) Knows everything
(4) Smart

Sth bad abt him:
Seriously cant think of anything tt's bad abt him.. he has never turned me down when i needed help from him. He may be invisible sometimes, but once you need him, he will be there! Oh oh!! Yes, he asked me a rude question before! Hahahha

Yingying

Known her for 20 years.

Sth gd abt her:
(1) Pretty chio beautiful sweet attractive good looking lovely and wad have you
(2) Smart intellectual clever brainy bright ingenious witty and wad have you
(3) Faithful n loyal
(4) Says quite good lame jokes
(5) Low maintenance

Sth bad abt her:
(1) Too faithful
(2) emotional, heart rules head rather than the other way round
(3) stupid and hopeless
(4) bossy n critical
(5) paranoid
(6) not friendly enough (tho i personally think i am friendly enough)
(7) lazy
(8) not demure nor dainty
(9) sounds like a guy on the phone
(10) lousy figure
(11) lousy dress sense
(12) ugly hair
(13) Dependent on others at times
(14) Loserish

Haiyo! My bad points seem endless.. does tt make me a lousy person? Hmmmm...

Why?

Today, when i was on the bus, this question suddenly resurfaced in my mind.

Why is there no one ACTIVELY interested in me?

Yes, i remembered that i attributed this to nash equilibrium.

But, I think there is more to that.

I look at the friends and friends of friends around me.

Not everyone is chio, some are only average looking, but they have guys swamping around them!

Even if not so, the guys chasing them use all sorts of methods to win their hearts!

Buy flowers.. expensive dinner.. buy things tt they said they like in passing.. do powerpoint sildeshows.. romantic confessions etc etc etc.

Why i dun have?????

What exactly is wrong with me???

I thought real hard about this question, and of course lar, i arrived at an answer.

I am not like other girls. If you like, you can call me unique or special. But probably the word to describe me is weird.

For a guy to go after a girl, firstly, the girl must be friendly, or at least nice.

Secondly, the girl has to give the guy the feeling that she seems keen or interested in him.

Thirdly, the girl must be willing to go out with the guy when he asks her out.

Fourthly, the girl must be initiative also.

I am not nice. Nor am i interested in guys whom i just got to know. And i NEVER go out with guys i dun have a tinge of feelings for. Neither am i initiative.

Since i am none of the above mentioned, guys dont dare to chase me issit?

But, issit my problem??? Am i hard to please??

Oh well. It you guys' losses ANYWAY.

So, i dun think highly of girls who have so many guys worshippping them at their feet.

It just goes to show that they are ultra friendly to guys, toy with guys' feelings by being nice n giving the wrong impression. Make the guys like her den do all sorts of things for her den in the end tell them she treat them as friends. Den still wan to remain friends and be nice and continue to twirl the guy around their fingers. Pui.

Why? Why must girls do all these? For wad? For the kick of it? Very fun meh? I despise such girls.

Bored again

Yes, i'm just bored again. This time no stories already lar. How did you find my story? Pretty cool right? Hahah Mabel thinks it's great! She's my good friend!

Anyway, 2004 is finally coming to an end.. I'm really counting down to it. So many bad things happened this year and I hope all these end tog with the year.

Well, i'm thinking of wad i can blog about during the last days of 2004. Inspired by Mabel, I thought of doing a mini intro of all my friends, their gd n bad points. Cool eh? So, if u wanna noe wad i think abt you, stay tuned!

I write as if many ppl read my blog, actually it's jus a few miserable friends of mine who pity me because no one reads my blog. =(

Read if you are really bored.

My blog entries seem to revolve around how loserish my life has been.

All the suay-ness and stupidity.

Read already also sian right?

Ok, then this is something new and different.

I shall read to you a story tt i'm composing, and as i am writing each line, i'm thinking abt wat to write for the next line, and i dunno how the ending will be.

Hmm.. lemme think of a title.

Ah. Ok, let is be 'Why men are visual creatures.'

Long long time ago, when mankind still lived in caves and hunted for a living, cavewomen were actually all very pretty.

Since everyone was jus as pretty, looks wasn't considered a weapon against the other girls. Instead, capabilities were more important.

If a girl were virtuous, cna give birth, do housework and b obedient, then the men will like.

At tt time, girls have to compete to get men's attention. They've got to show the men they were actually capable. Eventually, they no longer cared abt the looks. So their tummies grew bigger by the day, cellulite began surfacing on their thighs, boobs n butt started to droop. God see already very sad. The beatiful beings tt he created were degenerating!

So, he had to make them maintain themselves! but how?? no one cared!

The only way was the men. Sigh, he had to sacrifice them.

So, he made them only see the boobs legs butt etc etc.

So girls evolved into pretty little things, while guys evolved into shallow creatures.

Ok, lame storyline.

My 'wonderful' christmas

On xmas itself, my godma invited me to her place to have a xmas feast.

Got turkey, chicken wings, popiah, noodles, thai food, log cake, almond pudding and a lot more goodies! (which i cant rem, and you will find out soon enough why i cant rem) Such a great feast, how can i not go right? And also because being the loserish me, i had no plans for tt day lar.

So I happily woke up on xmas day and started to prepare to go. But early morning, got diarrhoea. I thought it was okay, it meant i can clear some space and eat more.

When i reached my godma's place, the diarrhoea got more frequent. And my tummy started to hurt. So it was more visits to the toilet. I reckon i spent more time in the toilet on xmas day than at any other places.

At about 1 plus, my godma told me to go see doc, otherwise the clinic will close at 2 and reopen again at 6. but i thought i felt slightly better. So i decided i wont waste money.

But it jus got worse and worse. Every hour or so, i visit the toilet at least twice. Then the vomitting started. What did i eat the day before??? Or wat wrong did i do to deserve such a painful xmas??

In the end, i had to lie down in bed! cant even move ard cos moving will trigger off the pain in my tummy. I have a high treshold for pain, but really couldnt stand the pain tt day. So tt's why i didnt get to see wat my godma cooked and didnt know exactly how much great food i misssed out.

Finally, i got to see the doc. By then, i was already half dead, and i'm not exaggerating. Couldnt even walk on my own, couldnt sit, could only lie down. And if i walked too long, my vision became blurred n my ears will start to burn. Weird eh? but i think it's cos i hav low blood pressure lar. I felt really terrible man.. no words can describe how i felt. or rather, my limited vocab doesnt allow me to express myself well enough.

The doc gave me a jab, double dose of the medicine to ease my pain somemore. The jab was darn effective! But yar lar, it still took some time before i recovered. Oh, anyway, i'm almost fine now. =)

The 2 kg tt i xing xing ku ku put on is now GONE!

2 years ago, I also had food posioning, but it was worse, the pain n diarrhoea n vomitting lasted abt a week. And i lost so much weight tt i never really gain them back again.

Next year, i jus hope for a normal xmas.

My Christmas Eve

My Christmas Eve was quite a bad one.

Not tt bad, but bad.

My plans for the day were really simple:
1)Meet evon n emily in town.
2)Evon stays over at my place.
3)Enjoy myself.

Simple plan hor?

But some stupid being have to spoil it.

This stupid being, whom i shall name A, called me at abt 12 plus, when i was already on my way to town to meet Evon n Emily. A said he prepared a xmas celebration for me n the others, and wanted me to reach the place asap. can u believe tt? You got xmas celebration you will also inform your frens earlier right?

Ok, A is not my fren. But i am obliged to go. But, i already promised my frens leh! I have my own plans one leh! A thinks tt other beings are like him, xmas eve no plans one! Pls lor! I may be single, but i have friends LOR! I am not tt loserish what makes A think tt I can go to the celebration jus because?

So, i told A i cant go.. after some persuasion he relented. I heaved a sign of relief. But guess wad?? A' called! in less than 20 seconds!! And A' didnt even try to persuade me. he jus said, "Hello Yingying, we're having a xmas celebration, the director bought a lot of food for you all already. We are all waiting for you. wat time can you come over?" Was I given a chance to say no????

Alright, you may think tt no one can force me to do things I dun wan to do. if you think so, THEN YOU CAN JOLLY WELL GO AND BE FRENS WITH A!

Since i know i had to go, i jus said "ok, give me abt half hour"

A' said, "ok you come quickly"

EXCUSE ME LOR! I'm doing them a blardy favour lor! Still use tt kinda tone with me!

Ok, after tt everything was fine. Luckily my friends were kind and understanding enough to empthasise with my plight.

I managed to buy another 2 tops frm mango! yay!

Oh, and here's emily n evon @ lips cafe. Chio right? hahahha.



Dinner at my place was good la. We had quite a bit of fun, watched VCDs.. 50 first dates' great! Where to find such a sweet guy?

Ok lar, enough abt my loserish xmas eve.

Testing testing one two three

evon n the fockers!

Just testing if i can load photos.

MNG Saleeeeeeeeeeeeeee

It's mango sale time!!!

I had inside info that the much anticipated mango sale will offically kick off today. I have a friend who works at mango suntec, and i can tell him wad clothes i wan and he can chop for me!

AHAHHAHA!

Now i can finally, for the first time, buy the clothes that i want!

For those of you who dont know why it's so difficult to get clothes during mango sale, lemme tell you the story of the Mega Mango Sale (MMS).

MMS takes place more than once a year, probably twice, i'm not too sure. But what i am sure is that, I have never gotten a single piece of sale item from the mango sale. I neveer knew when the sale starts, and always realise it towards the ending of the MMS. And by then, only sizes 6, 8, 10, 12, 14 etc will be left. My size, which is a 2, is always snapped up by the way-too-skinny singaporean girls.

Another reason y i cant find my size is tt the sales girls keep the best clothes for themselves. (thanks rs for this piece of info.) So unfair right? But then, if i were mango salesgirl, I will keep the clothes for myself too.

So, i never get excited when i hear tt there's a MMS gg on. Afterall, i wont find my size. and only ugly clothes will be left.

So in my humble opinion, i think MMS should be known as SMS (Shitty Mango Sale).

Since this time round i had first hand info, i should make full use of it! I shall buy all the size 2 clothes! And for those people who only know abt it late, den OBI GOOD you! TOO BAD AHAHHAHAH!

I excitedly told my sister there will be a sale gg on! she was just as excited as i was. for guys who are reading this, if you think that girls are crazy to get crazy over sales, den in my humble opinion again, i think you are the crazy one. And girls who are reading this and dun understand too, then you are, in essence, a guy.

We planned to wake up early this morning (cos the sale starts at 8 AM), around 830.. so that we can reach Tampines Mango at abt 9. Being the lazybums we always are, we couldnt wake up and ended up reaching there at abt 945.

But 945 still early mah, right? But!!! can you believe that i saw people mountain people sea when i stepped into mango???? I jus couldnt believe tt there're so many kiasu ppl like me! And most of them were holding BASKETS of clothes! It looked like a wet market man! All the aunties n some girls ramaging thru the clothes.

There were so many middle aged ladies there, i bet $1 000 000 they took half day leave jus to come to the sale. I hope they end up buying and wearing the same clothes as their collegues.

Well, anyway, i bought a nice PINK (again) top from mango for only $19! I think the original px was 45. YAY i zhuan4 dao4!

Ok tt's all. I had a tiring day. Thanks for reading this useless n silly n bimbotic blog entry.

SUAYSUAYSUAYSUAYSUAYSUAYSUAY

我不blog不可以。

I have to complain about STARS.

STARS SUCKS STARS IS SLOW STARS LAG STARS WASTE MY TIME STARS SHOULD JUST GO AND DIE.

Subject registration has never been so SLOW for me.

Huh the stupid stars. cant handle so many people at one go. Huh den just do away with it lar! Why let it exist? Huh stars came up with the STARS planner thingy to make registration easier. Huh then why isnt it any easier? Huh you tell me!! Wasted like 2 hours of my time jus waiting. And huh, what was i waiting for? Waiting for my slots to have zero vacancies!

I can go on and on, and be more vulgar if i want to. Huh but i shall not stoop to the level of stupid STARS. Yes they should change the name to S.STARS --> STUPID STARS!

Some X'mas wishes

I blogging cos i'm just bored yar.

So i thought of things that i want for xmas, though i noe i cant recieve any for the time being.

(1) An ipod, WITH SPEAKERS.
Yup, an ipod alone is not enough! The other day at the chalet, two of my friends brought their ipods along. We were walking along the beach in the middle of the night.. and we decided to bring along the ipod with the speakers for some music and ambience. It's so portable, chic n sleak! I simply lurveeeeee it. hahhah. Initially, I dun have much feelings towards ipods or MP3 players. But after tt day, i sure wish tt i own one!

(2) A Laptop
I jus want to own a laptop. No reasons.

(3) A fully paid for shopping spree
Yeah, i'm sure all girls want this. Then we can buy anything and everything tt we want. Yay!

(4) A romantic dinner, a fantastic present and a wonderful memory
Yes yes influenced by X. But not everyone can give me this.

(5) Happiness and Health

(6) A good book.

(7) A valentine.
Gawd i sound desperate. Ha ha ha ha.

Yawn. Cant think of any more stuffs tt I want. Tt's abt it.

Sighs.

I went out today, and it was a fantastic day. I happened to see this friend of mine, let's call him X. X was at suntec, looking for a musical box, which he wants to give to a girl as xmas present.

Apparently, he's trying to chase the girl lar, so of course, xmas eve will be a v special day for him! xmas is a celebration mah, so he has to make full use of this festive to like 'show off' to the girl. show off not in a bad way of course, but in the sense that he's gotta show her his sincerity, his love etc.

Yeah so he was frantically looking for the muscial box, but couldnt find at suntec nor citylink. Desperate alrdy, he turned to me for help, asking me to buy for him if i see a nice one. Luckily for him, he found one at raffles city. gd for him..

I talked to him on MSN jus now. He was, of course, thinking about wat to do on tt special night. He wanted a (romantic, i add) dinner with her. And he asked me if i knew any gd places

X: 'You know of any places tt is good and cheap?'

Me: Whats your budget?

X: Around 150...

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! You call tt cheap??? No one has spent so much money on dinner with me you know!!! I really envy tt girl.

Well, I was kinda (note the past tense) excited to help, cos i dunno man, I jus love to help guys to woo girls using the most romantic method.

So i thought of many places for him.. esplanade.. boat quay.. dinner on boat.. stadium waterfront, sentosa cable car dinner etc etc..

And i realised why i love to help when it comes to such matters.

Probably it's to fulfil my own wishes.

I always hoped to go on a romantic dinner.. a romantic date. No need to be freaking expensive.. but jus somewhere i'll remember forever for the rest of my life. And because it never happened to me, I recommend to other couples these places tt i always wanted to go. So that they can have fun, remember it for the rest of their lives and fulfill my wish for me.

Suddenly, i feel so sad. And jealous. Then X asked me,, "Then you leh? how u gg to spend your xmas eve?'

Definitely nothing compared to yours you dumbo. wat an insensitive question to ask..

Fear #1

Ageing.

This ten top list thingy is in no order of fear yar. I jus put down watever that comes to my mind first.

The mere thought of a new year makes me shudder.

For many, it means a fresh new begining, and many new happy moments to look forward to.

For me, i simply dread it.

A new year means a year older. And more wrinkles. And drier skin. And less soft skin.

A few months back, I saw a woman on the train. I was sitting down, and she stood in front of me. Because my head was bent down, I saw her hands first, before any other body parts. Just from her hands, I could tell her age. Probably someone in her mid thirties, i thought to myself.

Then, the world momentarily stopped. One day, a 20 yr old girl will b sitting on the train, i will be standing in front of her, and she will be concluding my age jus based on how my hands looked! *gasp*

These days, or rather, months, I have been scrutinising my skin.. my face.. constantly on the lookout for signs of ageing. And i seem to be able to find those signs real easy!

I never understood why women are so scared to reveal their age. Guess I know now..

Nowadays, when people ask me, 'how old are you?'

I wont tell them, I would say, 'Guess leh.'

If they guessed 20, or more, I'lll be mighty sad. But if they say i look 19, I'll be over the moon!! You might say, 'It's only one yr diff wat, got diff meh?'

YES THERE IS A DIFFERENCE!!!

20 starts with a 2, 19 starts with a freaking 1!

19 means i'm still quite young, naive and of course, i look younger.

20 jus means i'm on the road to wrinkles. And the road to wrinkles is very smoothsailing one, i assure all of you.

'There's no ugly women, but only lazy women'

And i'm one real lazy woman. NO, i mean i'm one real lazy GIRL.

I see wrinkles everywhere, everyday.

I really fear ageing. And the worst thing is, I'm not doing anything to stop it.

Somebody help me!

Yesterday: Suay. Today: God made it up for me.

I guess God isn't tt unfair after all lar.

Today is the day results will be released.

I was really worried that my suay-ness from yesterday will continue today.

Thank God it didnt.

God is fair lar. he knows tt i will get gd results, den he dun wan me to ya ya and think tt i'm damn lucky, so he made me suay yesterday.

Well, i kinda like this arrangement.

Unlucky... again. and again. and again???

Probably i should jus change the title of my blog to 'Life of an unlucky girl'. Yesterday was, i believe, the unluckiest day of my entire life. Even I was shocked at how unlucky a person can get.. I must have done a lot of bad things in my past life tt's why i'm here to suffer this lifetime.

Let me tell you who i was in my past life. I took an online 'who were you in your pastlife?' test a few weeks back. I dont believe in this kinda things lar, cos usually we are only required to fill in our birth dates and then those 'pastlife tellers' will know who we were. But that web site was slightly different lar, i had to like answer a few personality questions and from those questions, they will try n decipher who i was previously. I thought it will be more accurate. And guess wad.... I was a WHORE. A whore???? can u believe that??? what the hell.... jus cos i'm pretty doesnt mean i must b a whore wad..... Since then, i decided that all online tests, especially those about your pastlifes, are hoaxes.

Anyway, back to why I was so unlucky. The unlucky-ness started the minute I stepped out of my house. I went out early in the morning, because I had a blardy casting for a panadol advert at 10. I know it will be a total waste of my time, but i still went because of my agency. So....

Situation #1
I had to change bus at the bus stop outside Park Mall. Waited like 20 minutes for bus 139 to come. So i was slightly late.

Situation #2.
My sister told me that i should alight 3 or 4 bus stops later, so i was diligently counting the bus stops. Turned out that i was supposed to alight at the second bus stop. I only realised that when i passed the second stop. so i had to walk like an extra 400m to get to the place. Had i alighted at the second stop, all i needa do was jus cross the road.

Situation #3
I managed to find the place kinda effortlessly. When i stepped in, i realised tt there was only 1 person around. She told me that she wasn't informed by my agency that there will be people coming down for castings in the morning. So the photographer went out.

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Tampines to River Valley Road aint a very short distance okay! Totally proved to myself tt i will only be wasting my time. She actually wanted me to wait till 1130 for the photographer. But I had to meet my friends at 1230.. and i had to go home first to pack my stuffs (we were having a chalet so i needa get my clothes first). So no way.. then she told me to come back the next day, which i really dont want but have no choice. Come back again tmr lor wat to do...

Situation #4
I walked to the bus stop.. trying damn hard to tell myself tt it isn't unluckiness. Then, jus as i stepped out of the place, bus 139 zoomed past me. -_-......

Situation #5
I reached the bus stop, which was 400 m away. I was getting pissed because i jus cant believe tt i can be so suay. bus 139's frequency is darn low, like one bus every 20 min. I was really getting angry, because i dont know who to push the blame to.

Situation #6
At the bus stop, there were 2 ah lians at one corner, me, an uncle and an ah ma at the other corner. I jus sat down to wait for the bus. I thought to myself, 'what possibly can happen at the bus stop? Surely a bus wont ram into the stop right?' Jus then, the ah ma, who was standing next to me, dropped her red colour plastic bag onto the ground. Then she came in front of me, and started praying (and put her palms together) in hokkien,

'i pray that you will be suay! i pray tt you will die!'

Me: ????

'i pray tt you will be suay! i pray tt you will die!'

I was really bewildered... but i guess she's probably crazy, so i tried to ignore.

'i pray tt you will b suay! i pray tt you will die!!!!'

[begining to fume.]

'You lazy girl, why are you here? You should die!' [she said tt in hokkien and tho i dun understand, i roughly caught wat she was saying]

Wah, i buay tahan!!!! I decided i will go and sit with the ah lians. Luckily they didnt join in the ah man and curse me.

Situation #7
The bus finally came. I boared the bus quickly, i've heard enough of wad the ah ma was saying. But she boarded the bus. -_-....
As you may expect, she continued cursing on the bus la, some more curse until she was out od breath and had to stop to breathe. She was cursing the whole bus now la, and now that she's not cursing me, it was quite funny to see an old lady hollering away, as if ppl are listening to her. I ended up pitying her. She proabably have children who dont care abt her tt's why she's gg mad.

Then, the bus stopped in front of 234A river valley road (which is the place where i had my casting), WHAT???? There's actually a bus in front of that place!!! And i actually COCK EYE and missed it!!!

Situation #8
At PS, i dropped off, and have to change another 2 buses b4 i can reach home. (didnt feel like taking a train. the train might jus stall, given the fact i was so suay. but then again, come to think of it, the same might happen with buses). From PS, i have to take 64 to lil' india den change to 23 to go tampines. The minute i alighted, i realised i can take this stupid bus139 to little india! Den i can save one bus trip! And blardy bus 64 is another low frequency bus! OMG am i really so suay.........

Situation #9
I know i will be idling away while waiting for the bus, and 'This Fashion' is just in front of the bus stop. "argh.. shopping ard will b better than standin under the hot sun. A while only, the bus won't come one lar', I thought to myself. I haven even step into the shop for 5 minutes and the bus came. I saw it, contemplated for 2 secondsa whether i should run for it. I should, of course, otherwise how much longer must i wait? I reached in time okay, but the door jus closed. I was disappointed for a while, but i realised tt the bus wasn't moving yet! If i flag, the bus driver will still open the door one! I flagged. for abt 3 seconds? (which is a damn long time) The indian bus driver refused to look at me!!!!!! then he never open the door for me!!!!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

Am i really so suay?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
I cant go back to the shop lar, the sales girl saw me running frantically out, so sia suay to go back. Then i waited. A bus came. Bus 139. -_-....

Situation #10
At lil india i waited abt ten min for bus 23 to come, but i have decided not to include tt as one of my unlucky encounters. I cant accept tt SBS transit has sth against me.

I reached home, and naturally, complained to my mom the minute i saw her. Guess wad? No prizes for guessing it right...

She scolded me.

For wad??? I guess cos i was stupid lar.

I mentioned jus now i was supposed to meet my friends right, it ended up tt they were all late, except one. They reached at like 230???? I should have jus stayed till 1130 for the photographer. Had i stayed, i will only b unlucky twice. But then again, I could also possibly be unluckyfor the rest of the day.

What a day! I'm gg to remember it forever.. unlucky ten times in a short time span of 4 hours?? Gosh, till now, i still cant believe it. You find it funny? actually, i also find it quite funny now. Talk abt being suay.... If anyone of you have been suay for more than 10 times in 4 hours, please let me noe. I will feel better.

My top ten greatest fears

Inspired by Ying Wai, who should really feel honoured now that his name is being mentioned in my blog, I have decided to come up with my own top ten list.

For now, it will be my greatest fears. 排名不分先后　okay.

Anyway, I think all of you can see that I'm thoroughly bored. Yes I am. I have a lot of things to do but i cant help but feel bored.. can someone tell me if there's a free shuttle bus from NTU to jurong point? I saw it outside hall 2 just now! couldnt belive my eyes.

Yeap I will list the first of my fears the next time i blog. Keep you guys in suspense for the time being!!

Embracing change

I have changed the layout of my blog! Doesn't it look nicer, more serene and healthier? Yes i am embracing changes, and accepting it as part and parcel of life. I used to hate changes, I hated changing to new things, and then discarding the old.

Recently, i bought a new jacket. So my famous red jacket is kinda useless now. But i miss my red jacket. Though it's old, and I didnt really discard it (my sister was more than happy when i gave it to her), I jus 舍不得她。(I made my jacket a female). Which results in a slight hatred for my new jacket. (mind you, it's pretty nice and is from ZARA okay.)

I have come to realise that changes in our lives are inevitable. For the past few years, my life remained roughly the same, cos i tried very hard to force things to remain the way they are. No changes are good, cos things are expectable, and i like an expectable and stable life. But now, 我认命了。Things have to change one day.

Although i no longer wear my red jacket, it still has a place in my heart. Because it is the first jacket I truly loved and wear everyday. Well, at least now i jus DISLIKE changes.

xxxxxx

Here's another guessing game: Guess the colour of my new jacket! I dropped a very obvious hint! ;p

Answer to the riddle

Because right...

The black car is the red car's shadow..

AHHAHAHHA.

Lame right...

If Life is fair...

If life is fair...........

• i will be beatiful gorgeous pretty hot desirable sexy chio
• i will have all the luck in the world
• i will be swarmed by guys
• i will live to a ripe old age (because I am good)
• i will be smart
• i will marry a good man
• i will not have a tummy
• i will be a goddness
• people will kneel down in front of me when they see me
• I will be happy all the time
• i will be the president of the united states
• i will be blessed with beautiful children
• i will be tall and slim
• i will be the prettiest in the world
• i will have the best figure
• i will be mighty rich
• i will be able to dance and sing
• i wont be a bitch
• i will know how to drive without having to learn
• i will be a superior being, more importantly, superior over guys
  

(ok enough about me)

• all guys will be good
• all guys will be faithful and shower girls with tender loving care
• all guys will understand girls
• all guys will be smart (but depending on circumstances, it may sometimes be better for them to remain stupid)
• guys wont get orgasms all the time while girls dont
• guys will have periods too
• guys will conceive too
• rapist wont exist
• rapists will ALL DIE a horrible death
• flashers will have nothing to flash
• molestors will get molested b4 they molest others, better still, let them get raped

Unfortunately, as all of us know, the world isn't fair. The world may seem upside down sometimes, but i choose to believe life is actually quite beautiful... Look at life this way..

Because life is unfair....

• You can sing, but I cant
• You aren't pretty, while I'm sooo chio AHAHHAH
• You can dance, while I cant
• You arent lovable, while i am
  
• You have a boyfriend, but I am single
• I'm happy this way while you quarrel with your bf ALL the time
  
• You are rich, I'm poor
• I am poor but i have health
• Good looking guys dont get good looking girls
• because good looking girls are saved for ugly guys hahha
• and vice versa la hor.

And many many more lar.. god may make you ugly.. but u are talented ma.. not like me pretty with no talents hahhaahahha. So actually, in some ways, God has been fair to all of us.

Food for thought

Hey! I have a riddle for you guys!

Here goes..

There is this red car and black car. Both are speeding down the highway. Both are caught on video. Why is it that only the red car got fined, while the black car got away scotfree?

Think about it! I will publish the answer in my next blog!

The way Love is.

I just suddenly thought of this the other day.

Love doesn't seem to.. stay.

It lingers around for a while.. then goes..

Let us look at the life cycle of LOVE.

Stage 1 : Parents

When you were born, your love belongs to your mother, or your parents. Afterall, the only persons u come in contact with most frequently are your parents. They feed you, clothe you, play with you, rock u to sleep etc. Their care for u makes you love them.

Stage 2 : Friends
In school we make loads of frens. Slowly, these friends become important to us. We are afraid tt we will lose these frens.. so we put them as one of our top priorties. We used to tell troubles to our parents, but now we turn to our friends. Sometimes, we even dislike our parents, for being there, 'meddling' with whatever we do. We may even feel shameful of them at times.

Stage 3 : Lovers

As we grow older.. we meet even more people, people of the opposite sex. Then we think we meet the correct one. The correct one is v. impt to us. Because we think that we will be spending the rest of our lives with him/her. So we concentrate most of our love on this person.. we all have a limited supply of love. Which means that we will start to love our friends less, and our family even lesser.

[This stage may not apply to all]
Stage 4 : It's back to family and friends

The supposedly correct one, doesnt seem to be the correct one after all. Then wad happens to the love we invested in tt person? It goes back to family n frens. Love is like energy, it only gets transferred/converted, but not lost.

Stage 5 : Husband and wife

We den get married and settle down. love goes to our partners. Friends aren't so impt at this stage alrdy, because in times of trouble, family members are usually the first to help.

Stage 6 : Our very own kids

We bear kids. Kids are the centre of our world now. The world revolves around them. Partners.. still impt but kids are on a higher priority. Kids kids kids kids and kids.

Perhaps, for the rest of our lifetime, the stage ends here. The cycle for our kids den starts again... notice that some love lingers.. even when we move from one stage to another. When we decide to love someone, the love that we give will always remain with that person even if they were to leave us forever.

My perfect Prince Charming

I hardly think about what kinda guys i like.

I always just brush away that thought carelessly because I was in such a steady rs.

I mean, why think about sth so redundant?

Killing my brain cells unneccessarily.

Today, I pondered over this question.

Let's discuss physical attraction first.

1. Definitely not ugly. Can't be someone who wears geeky black colour thick plastic frame glasses. Nor can you plaster your hair to your scalp. Nor can u have ugly huge acne.

2. Tall. At least 1.8m la. I jus have a thing for talllllll guys. Short guys just dont appeal to me. But i dun hav anything against them.

3. Of the correct build. I dun mean bulging muscles, or muscles so huge that your arms cant even touch the sides of your body. That's really a turnoff! A well toned n sculpted chest will be a bonus. Jus dont have to be bigger than mine. Muahhahaha. And i like things natural.

4. Tanned. I cant stand fair guys. So.. ah gua.. and vulnerable looking.

5. Single eyelids. Hahha dont they look more manly with single eyelids?? Guys like Toro with huge eyes and double eyelids are tooo cutie for me. No thanks.

6. Short Hair. not floopy hairstyles, no centre partings pls!

I shall not be shallow and list too many physical attributes. Now for the non-physical part i.e. abilities.

1. Smart. brillant guys are soooo coool! Of cos smart can mean a lot...
(i) Excel in sch work. This is a must! I simply adore guys who do well in their studies.. they seem so attractive when they have brains.
(ii) Quick. Meaning they can understand sth totally with a snap of my fingers.
(iii) Too lazy to think of the various meanings of smart. Basically, smart in anything and everything.

2. Hardworking. Someone who works hard to achieve what he wants.

3. Has a vision. A vision of me and him in the future will be enough.

4. Sporty. Please know how to play a sport other than soccer. I think guys who play soccer only are brainless. Guys, learn basketball if you want to impress a girl. And make sure you are damn zai at the game.

5. Witty. Oh please be witty... If you are, i will jus stare at you with adoration for the whole day.

6. Humorous. Being funny is really important.. but i have a weird sense of humor la huh. The unfunniest jokes cracks me up. And i can laugh at the same joke for years.

7. SNAGs. Nah, no MCPs. I will like to know how it feels like to have a sensitive caring boyfriend.. someone who thinks of me before himself.. someone who gives me lil' surprises every now and then.. someone who hugs me truly lovingly.

8. Lastly... someone who can read my mind. Guys really cant understand how a girl feels or what a girl wants. What we want is always v simple and attainable. Jus for our boyfriends to love and care for us. very difficult meh? guys.............

Am i asking for too much? Ahahhahah. I dun think so. Basically, all these sums up to one sentence : Jus someone who truly loves me whole heartedly. I'm praying real hard.

Stop proving to me that you guys are jerks

Once again, once again, some stupid guy out there has to prove to me that the male population is made up of J E R K S. Let me retell the story that i have repeated umpteen times.

On a wonderful Saturday morning, when i could jolly well be sleeping, I was busy rushing to get ready to meet these 2 ppl. Hall 13 and Hall 15 Social Secretaries. We were to meet to buy some balloons are the Hall Opening Ceremony. And these balloons must be able to lift up 1 x 3 m banners when filled with helium.

Our task: To bring a banner along , fill the largest balloon we can find with helium, and pray for a mircale.

Well, because I dont have a banner, hall 15 social sec brought one along.

We planned to meet at 1 pm at Somerset MRT station.

I woke up at like 10 jus to prepare and make sure I wasn't late. Being the ambassador of Hall 14, I dun wanna do anything that reflects badly on the hall (H A H A).

I reached at 1.05pm. Slightly late, but i really rushed. Hall 15 SS msged to tell me he will be late and told us to go ahead first. He didnt even tell me where the place was, he jus expects me to step into Centrepoint and the shop will jus drop from the sky right in front of my feet. Well, Hall 13 SS was like 15 minutes late. So i decided i'll go find out where the shop that sells homogous balloons were. Found it and Hall 13 SS arrived shortly after.

There wasn't much the both of us could do, except look at the colours of the balloons, and repeat the prices in front of the sales girl again and again. After that, both of us just stood awkwardly in front of the salesgirl.

I suggested to hall 13 SS that she calls Hall 15 SS. It was already 130 and there was absolutely nothing else the two of us could do already.

She obediently called. (She looks kinda scared of me I dunno why. I'm as nice as a button wad. {copyright: http://xiaxue.blogspot.com})

Apparently, he was stuck at a traffic jam at scotts. And he was late because he had to send him father somewhere. So I thought to myself 'Hmm.. he should be here in abt 15 min time' ( I gave him parking time)

In the meantime, I went to Times to check if there're any nice cheap books worth buying. Ended up buying [5 people you meet in Heaven].

1.50.

I got kinda frustrated, cos I've walked every inch of Times' carpet. I decided, i should just call him myself.

Me: Where are you now?

Him: Err.. I'm parking my vehicle now..

Me: I thought you were at Scotts 20 min ago?

Him: Sorry there was a traffic jam..

Me: Where are you now?

Him: Mmm.. i'm at the building opposite.. Specialist Centre.

[Silence for abt 3 seconds. I was trying to contain my anger]

Me: Do you know you made us wait for you for an hour?

Him: (squeks) sorry....

du.............

I ended the call jus like that. I was toooo furious. I cant stand late people, which are dangerously seriously late.

WARNING: DO NOT READ THE WRONG NOVELS

This warning goes out to ALL girls.

*STOP READING ROMANCE NOVELS*

Guys can just ignore this cos it doesnt concern your species.

This especially goes out to girls who have never been in love before.

Romance novels are shit.

Trashy books.

They dont add value to your already warpped brain that is only filled with romance.

Romance DONT exist in this world. AT ALL.

Haven't you silly girls out there realise that romance novels are written by females?

Females who dream too much about a perfect world where guys can read our minds.

Where females are like goddess to guys.

It is impossible to find such a guy in reality.

So wake up la pls.

Romance in novels written by males are very different.

More realistic, less 伟大。

I read too much romance when i was young.

So i began to to paint a nice picture about the world.

Love between couples lasts forever.. guys remain true to their girls..

But i have come to realise.

Guys are all jerks.

No exceptions.

It's in their blood.

雨后真的会天晴吗？

Thank you Edna for dedicating a post to me.

I believe that the sun shines after the rain.

But when it is a storm,

it sure takes damn long to evaporate all the puddles of water on the ground.

Here's an excerpt from Edna's blog, which is an excerpt from the book "PS I Love You"

Days went by when she felt so happy and content and confident that her life would be OK,
and then as quickly as the feeling came it would disappear again, and she would feel her sadness setting in once more.

She tried to find a routine she could happily fall into so that she felt like she belonged in her body and her body belonged in this life, instead of wandering like a zombie watching everybody else live theirs while she waited around for hers to end.

THE second chance

You and I have made mistakes before.

Did silly things in the spur of the moment and regret it a second later.

For some, they realise their mistakes much later.

Should we give them a second chance?

Afterall, if someone else hadnt give u a chance after u made a mistake,

well, you probably wont be wat u r now.

But then again, sometimes, it jus isnt that easy to give someone a second chance.

Why?

It boils down down to selfishness i guess.

We are just afraid that the other party will hurt us again.

Or we jus want to get back at the other person, make him or her regret what he/she did and be remorseful for the rest of their lives.

We think of ourselves first before others.

Though some of you will argue this is inevitable after someone has hurt you.

That's so cruel, hor?

But then again, some people really don't deserve a second chance.

Many times, we wont know who deserves or dont deserve a second chance.

We give the wrong people second chances.

So we end up hurting ourselves.

That's why friends n family dont want you to give him or her a second chance.

We then arrive at another problem.

Because we do not want our friends and family to be upset over wrong decisions that we might possibly make,

We end up not giving deserving people second chances.

很乱！

人生有许多的无奈。

Well , I guess we should follow our hearts and not worry about how others judge us.

If you dont give that person another chance,

you could be the one living in regret and remorse.

人生有许多的无奈。

There are many things that we cannot control in our lives.

We are tied down to many things in many ways.

We cant jus go away because we have family commitments.

We cant jus scream our friends when we will like it because we still want them as friends.

All these restrict us, mentally, emotionally and physically.

Before we make decisions, we have to think abt our commitments.

That's why we sometimes let go of our dreams because of our commitments.

It is better to regret wat you've done, than to regret not doing wat you could have done.

Easier said than done.